Jean Luc ran as fast as he could as the thoughts of Analisette sped through his mind with each step. "I love you Jean Luc,Ill never leave you." She had said with a smile across her face but truth in her eyes. "I should have been better to her!Should have treated her like the goddess she is!" He yelled to himself as he continued running. Then he remembered ,"I don't believe you!You talk to him everyday,always texting or emailing!He wants you!Why would any man speak to a woman that much?!" Analisette began to cry,"So why are you with me?!You don't trust me!You cannot love without trust!" Jean looked at her tears then held her close to his chest,"I don't want you to cry.Its just that I don't want to loose you." He stopped running and placed his hands on his knees and caught his breath and thought,"I never wanted to hurt her or make her cry." He wiped sweat from his forehead and lip then forced himself to continue running.
His cellphone began to ring in his pocket.Slowing himself down and catching his breath he opened it,"Hello?" There was silence for a moment,"Jean? Its papa." He straightened himself up and replied,"Papa? My fathers dead Francois! What the hell do you want!" Francois cleared his throat then answered,"Listen you little bastard child,I seen your face on the news and Ive been trying to stop your mother from seeing her only son on the news for robbery!" Jean Luc seen an alley nearby with a building under construction next to it and began to walk towards it. "So what I stole a knife,"he said without remorse. "Jean have you completely lost it!Your not in France,this wont get swept under the rug!" Jean Luc rolled his eyes,"Listen Francois I don't care if I live or die! Tell my mother that I love her." He hung up and broke his phone in half and threw it in the garbage can outside of the alley.
As he walked into the alley his heart pounded in his chest and the words he had told his step father echoed in his head,"...I don't care if I live or die!" He fell in the darkness of the alley into a puddle of water. Tears began to fall from his face. He pushed himself to a kneeling position then sat on his heels. "I don't want to live!The woman that I love will never be mine!" He remembered how she had gotten up from the floor so fast to protect Adrine and how she took the hit for him. He held his fists to his face and screamed, "She would have done that for me,I don't deserve to live!" He stood up and remembered seeing her last performance. She walked on stage with such confidence. Seen me and didn't care,spoke to me,"When I met you,I knew. Our Love-simply put-grew.In your arms my love met your heart,then I decided from you I would never part." He Smiled when he remembered those lines. Then continued his memory of her poem,"But my art.Ended our start. Slowly you began to hate that part. Even though,my love tried with all its might to push through your misunderstood wall.Your main worry was who on my phone I would call.Our downfall." He got angry and walked over to a group of garbage cans and knocked them down and punched the wood that was covering the building that was under construction. Shaking the pain off his hand he continued his memory,"Its a shame but we cannot rewrite it.Found that together we cannot make it.Or fake it.With you I wanted to seek it,a life of loves reward.Instead of against,fight together with the same sword.I wanted to move forward.Toward marriage,kids,life.I dreamed of becoming your wife.But awoke to strife." He hit himself in the head with his closed fist repeatedly."She dreamed of that and all I did was accuse her of cheating and lieing!" He said to himself with tears pouring out of his eyes.He held his face in his hands and shook his head and continued to remember,"Knifed your words into my brain.You drove me insane.Without love you became pain.Stain my face with my poor tears.Cried,for you became one of my biggest fears." He lifted his head and couldn't believe he impacted her so much. He turned his head to the building that was under construction and seen an opening. Walking onto the construction site past warning signs that read "Hard Hat Zone" and "Warning no Trespassing" he could only feel the pain he had for loosing Analisette and regret of his mistreatment of her. He looked up at the structure as he heard thunder in the distance.Then Jean Luc continued to remember Analisettes poem and how she ignored him at this point and looked out to the crowd beyond him,"But I needed your cheers.I craved my fans and peers.Steered away from him for each and every one of you.Will I ever look back?Never cause my past was my clue." Jean began to ascend the structure and thought,"Her fans mean so much to her,I should have been understanding instead of trying to make her choose me over them. Ill make it right." He continued to remember her poem as he climbed the construction ladder against the building,"Paris,You hit my soul and heart and I wont lie,I'm scared of this divide.But I will never regret the ride.Just take it in stride." He had made it to the fifth ladder before he had looked down and became woozy off of the distance. It appeared that the side of the building where he was had been on fire and needed repairs. He entered the opening of the building and seen that the floor was brand new,"Probably just done,I wonder what had caused the fire? I could still smell the burnt wood in this room. Analisette loved that smell,every time I would light the fireplace she would sit close to it to smell the burning wood." He smiled at his memory of that then began to cry knowing he would never be able to experience her in that element ever again. Realizing that he would never have her in any element again made his heart feel as if it had been ripped from his chest. He seen a thick rope laying on the floor and seen his exit."I'm sorry Analisette,I should have cherished you,Never gave you any pain." He began to create a noose and kept speaking,"I don't deserve to live for the pain I caused you,My love.I'm sorry." He pulled the noose over his head and continued,"If I would have killed Adrine I could have had you,but instead you chose him,and made me hurt you." He seen Dust on the window,walked over and drew a heart and the letters "J" and "A" inside."If you would have told me you wanted to be my wife I would have changed.I would have let you do your art."He shook his head as tears fell rapidly down his cheeks. He slowly walked over to the end of the rope and picked it up and began to knot it to the construction structure and stepped out onto it. He remembered her last words to him,"Jean,I forgive you.But I want you to think the next time you want to try something like this. You have to understand,If you hurt him you hurt me.Ive felt too much pain from you already,the pain of you taking him away from me would be unforgivable.Leave,and never come back." He looked up and felt drops of rain hit his face and herd more thunder and seen a lightning bolt travel across the clouds."God please forgive my actions,but life isn't worth living unless I have her in it.Please understand." As the rain began to fall faster he looked out into New City and recited the last line of Analisettes poem out loud,"This to you is my sweet goodbye." He closed his eyes then stepped off of the structure...
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